Beginning Today

Beginning today, I have to free up myself from worries. I have to keep sane all the time. I have to keep my priorities and set aside the nonsense. Nonsense are still good but priority first. So far, I got the answer on my questions already. Wow, why I was usually absent-minded when it comes to family topic? Ooh well, I was lost that time. I did not know who to trust. I cannot blame myself because I was taught to be independent but knows the woes of the peeps surrounded me and that I could not stop. I was afraid that if I trust them, they will be in control of my life if I trust myself in them. I have my own life before I came to them. Where are they when I needed them? I can't force myself but to trust my instinct. It's been hard to teach myself with myself's idea. I have to differentiate the bad and the good without someone to guide. Well, there are may attempted but sorry I was determined on my ability (hey I got awards from my first grade up to my higher years and that's what I believe in -- my strength). And now I have to free this up. I won't afraid anymore. I am capable already because I got what the meaning of life is. This doesn't mean that I changed negatively. Everyday is a change for the better and there's a lesson I can get whether to get rid of some or to keep it. I am thankful enough that many thought of me as capable of something and I adore such. It is always in my heart wherever I am. It's just that I need some space that time which I thought there's nothing and I wasn't wrong. I encountered a lot of struggles and trials in life and I could say I am now a better person. No hatred and other negativity just gratefulness. I have to do the optimistic way to go on my life. It's only in hoping and being optimistic that we can go on with our life. Just be confident and that's it. I was thankful (until now) that I still had my life after all the struggles and difficulties. Well, that's life, struggles first then fruits of labor afterwards. I know confidence isn't that easy to get but if you were at it, hold it tight and never let it go. And hey, do you believe in the saying, "Forgive but don't forget"? Ahhh.. what about "Forgive and forget"? Hmmm... the one who read this of which I will have to say this to the concern knows. Ahhh.. forget it? :-)

Now I believe that "action and words will accompany with each other", do you believe that? This quotation is from my own experience. I do not know if somebody who is famous has quote it but I believe I haven't seen one but this doesn't mean that I am mighty-- it's just that it coincides to what I felt and experienced. There are times that it's either action or word but I believe serious talk is the answer since trust is where it leads. Trust is the best powerful word but could also be worst. Then conscience came in if ever the other party will break the trust. Conscience is the highest form of weapon towards a sensible person. A highly educated person who has fear to God Almighty has it. Be happy because everyone deserves happiness! Give yourself a break or should I say be happy in whatever you do. Strive to love whatever work you go into. I guess that's the secret of happiness. Happiness can be seen at the end of the struggles but it's better to experience it as the plot flows since you never know if you can get what you are striving for. What I am trying to emphasize is it's better to be happy and cool every now and then and at the same time strive hard the long-term goal but don't expect so much in it. If it will be given to you, then fine, if not then fine too, right? Well, this is just my opinion and everyone is subject to it's own opinion and I will stick to this idea (based upon my experience so far). Whew! It's great to be optimistic and living in an honest simple life. (~_~) Thanks for this, I am able to voice out! Diary, please keep them in your memory. I am happy and I deserve it, right? :-) Ahhh... :-) period. :-) .. seriousness :-)

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